Is there such a thing as 4th degree burn?

Well, it was a particularly good weekend, and I’m still finding it hard to get back into work today - but that is typical for me on a Monday.  Especially now that my whole department is out again, but me. 

Friday night I left work a bit early, headed to the mall for a little retail therapy, and found it - in Sephora *love some new makeup!*, Old Navy and Forever 21!   Cute little summer dresses, some shorts and tanks, and I felt great.  Got my hair done after that, and after a bit of grumbling from D back at home waiting for me, rushed back (trying to catch a movie), but we missed out.  Instead we just hung out, watched a movie on TV we’d already seen, and fell asleep by 11:30.  Saturday morning he left to go fishing with my dad early and I did a few things around the house before hitting the beach with my friend.  Unfortunately, the sun was scorching, the breeze was blowing and I wasn’t as diligent with the sunscreen on some parts of my body as I was on others.  Like I said - I’d be back today with tales of “woe is me and my terrible sunburn!” — well here they are:

My stomach is the color of fire.  Just my stomach. Literally the funniest looking sunburn EVER, an [almost] perfect square of super terrible burn on my stomach.  I also have funny burns on the top of my left foot, behind my right leg, and both of my knees.   But the stomach. OH that stomach.  I have been popping Advil consistently since Saturday night - and I’m sure my inner stomach is not happy about that one.  GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!   I’m so dumb!  I was so worried about my chest and shoulders burning (as they always do, not NOT this time!) that I kept reapplying and reapplying to them, and kind of forgot about a lot of other parts of me.  BOO HOO.

So after a quick decision, I took a 2 minute shower, got ready in 5 minutes and we hit up the 6pm showing of Indiana Jones.  I like going to the movies early, because I enjoy going out for drinks - and drinking and THEN going to a movie theater is the worst for me.  Especially when I didn’t really want to see this movie, it was a guarantee I would fall asleep.   The night was okay - we squabbled a bit over where to go for dinner afterwards (I was feeling guilty at how broke I was and how I couldn’t contribute to the meal or drinks and didn’t want to go anywhere fancy as a result, and he did.  Needless to say, it was stupid - we ended up going somewhere nice - having a good time at the bar, and going home early again, as my sunburn was killing me and he was exhausted from fishing.

Sunday we got up early and went for a bike ride, despite it being 84 degrees at 8:15!  We drove to a nearby park and rode for about an hour, and it was beautiful - not too hot, and a GREAT workout.  I was dripping in sweat by the time we finished, and was SO ready for a nice cold shower, which I promptly took as soon as I walked in the door.  My parents picked us up and we went to a nearby seafood festival, despite knowing better in the 98 degree heat — we ate some yummy things (lobster roll, crab melt pita, fish taco, clams, shrimp, crab cake) - no, I did not eat all that, only the lobster roll & a few bites of fish taco.   We were dying after an hour, and booked it!  I pretty much spent the rest of the day on the couch, nursing my burn with numerous glasses of ice water, and lifetime movies.  D had to go to a soccer game with his bro at Giants Stadium *he was pissed about that* - and left around 4:15… so I spent the night watching movies, eating, laying on the couch, and being a bum.  OOH I did do 1 load of wash!

So he left me again today (he’s about halfway there now) - and won’t return until Friday.  Thankfully I should be pretty busy all this week, and the time will hopefully fly by.  I’m so over this and so glad that this is his last travel (by plane) for a long time (FINGERS CROSSED).   Only bummer - the dress store called today and my fitting for Wednesday had to be rescheduled until July 2.  Apparently the seamstress isn’t feeling well and took the rest of the month off, starting today.  WTF?!  Anyway I was a little bummed but they reassured me I have plenty of time, and bonus - my veil is in!!  So I will get to see the whole package in less than a month! Also, it works for me as my 3-month hiatus of aunt flow is supposed to arrive Wednesday and ugh that thought was less than thrilling for me.

That is my weekend story in a nutshell.  I still plan on going to the gym tonight, hoping to GOD that the AC is crankin - and then I’ll have a lonely first night.  I plan to take a lunesta.  AMEN.

aw and one of my friends got engaged this weekend!  I think her ring is like the size of mars, I can’t wait to see it!

Only 7 more hours to get through…

I warn you: this post is probably going to be extremely random with lots of thoughts going through my head on this gloomy (so far) Friday.  I think bullets may be in order?

• I am [THANK THE LORD] getting my hair done today after work.  Its only been the requisite 8 weeks (okay I think its been 9), but I am DYING to go.  I put myself on this “hair schedule” to stick to before the wedding so that it would line up perfectly to get my hair done for the last time on August 16, 2 weeks before my big day so I’m fresh, but not yellow.  This is my last regular appointment before then, and it’s a little “scary” (only word I can think to express how close its all starting to seem).  I cannot wait to have more blonde, and actually have hair that has style as opposed to just laying there like hay. It’s going to be phenomenal.
• BOTH of my bosses are out today.  ALL DAY.  And after the 2 weeks I’ve had at work, I kind of want to just fuck around all day.  And I’m pretty sure I will.  I would even leave early but my hair appt isn’t until 6:30, which means like 2 hours walking around the mall - (yes I get my hair done at the mall, don’t judge, my girl is the BEST, and please, this is Jersey).  I plan to buy some cute summer casual dresses from Forever 21 or Charlotte Russe, and hopefully stop there.  But maybe I’ll look for a rehearsal dinner dress too….
• Speaking of buying dresses…. Sunday we were waiting for Brooks Brothers to open, and Anthropologie is right next door to it, and they were open. I decided to pop in and D waited outside on the phone with his Dad.  I love it there, but I’m not nearly a) rich enough, b) tall/thin enough, or c) chic enough to buy any clothes there — but he pops in and says “If you see a dress or something you like, I’ll buy it for you.”  and turns around and walks out.  Now, if you knew D - this is SO out of character you would think he had done something wrong and was trying to make up for it.  I didn’t end up seeing anything I liked, but he changed my whole attitude for the day with that little phrase. 
• On that same topic - Wednesday I asked him to borrow 20 bucks and without hesitating he said “Okay yeah I think I have a 20 in my wallet”.  Again, SO out of character.  Not that he’s stingy or doesn’t like to share or buy me things, but we’ve always had to be so tight with money that things like that just couldn’t happen, and I knew that.  Normally he’d say “for what?” - this time, nothing.  He’s been big on this “It’s our money” now - and I think he’s trying to practice what he preaches.  It feels good.
• I’ve decided on the little gift I’m going to give him for our wedding. I know we said no big gifts (aka 10 grand watches, so dumb) - but I do want to get him cufflinks for his suit on the wedding day.  While cruising through weddingbee the other day I saw a picture for this:
  
  They are custom cufflinks - where you can choose vintage maps that are significant to you, and she puts them in, [from etsy].   So after talking to this woman who makes them - I think I’m going to have one map be Newport and the other be the area on the Jersey shore where we’ve had our first place and have been living for a few years now.  Isn’t that adorable?  And so unique! It can be his something blue. hehe
• So I’ve decided that since he is home and I will be out getting beautiful tonight, I am making him call the travel agent [who no, has STILL NOT called or responded to any of my inquiries].  I’m writing up a list of all the things he needs to discuss with her, and hopefully we’ll get a definitive answer on everything. I am kind of glad I’m not going to be there and he has to take care of it all himself.. I’m just so mad at her and I want this finalized.  Seriously we have like a month to give the final payment, and she hasn’t even told us ANYTHING yet.  what the hell is that about?
• Also, I will be at the beach both days this weekend, so prepare for the “woe is me and my awful sunburn” stories on Monday.  I’m so stupid.  I need to reapply 30 every 30 I think. 
• This week I have been doing pretty good with the eating & working out, and plan to do my video tomorrow morning, and then we’re gonna ride our bikes early Sunday before it gets too hot, so I will have some activity in between the lounging and drinking beers on the beach.  Come on, it’s summer I do have to enjoy myself
• Before bed last night I said “Wow, I can’t believe I haven’t had a wedding nightmare in a while” and POOF, just like that, I had one about my bridal shower, and all these weird people showing up & D’s mom being late because she had to stop and buy us a baby carriage..  It’s way too long to get into but needless to say, I must be concerned with it.
• Invites have shipped!   Here’s a sample proof - obviously modified to protect the innocent:
• At the bottom will be our first names in script, and in the middle part our first & middle names

So that’s all I’ve got in my little corner of the world.  Seems like a bit more than I originally thought…

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend & stay cool

 

Stupid obsessions

So the invites are officially “approved” and their status says “printing”.  Holy shit, I will probably poop my pants when they arrive in the mail.

The best thing about my LONG day yesterday, was coming home and D deciding he wanted to try my yoga DVD.  I had driven about 4 hours total that day, had a splitting stupid sinus headache (AGAIN), and decided the best path for me was laying on the couch.  So in front of me, in his boxers and his undershirt, he tried for the very first time to find his inner peace and strength.   And promptly gave up 7 minutes later.

I don’t know if it was the angle I was laying at, but his legs looked longer than usual, he looked like a baby giraffe trying to walk for the first time, and all I could do was laugh hysterically.  Turns out, seeing those few short minutes was all I needed to turn the whole day around.

Over Memorial Day weekend, I talked to my friend who was recently married at the end of April.  I asked her quite frankly (as she and I are always very honest when it comes to anything bridal related, or otherwise) - ‘how on earth did you look so good on your wedding day’ [weight-wise, obviously]   She told me that while yes, in the few weeks before the wedding she ate a lot less, and was much more mindful of what she was eating - that she didn’t really have time to work out, and that by the wedding morning she was at her weight from SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL.   If I weighed that much (117lbs), I would probably have to be checked into the hospital because everyone would think I was dying.    I would take losing 5 pounds.  But after listening to her tell me that she had no idea what happened [but most likely just stress], she just seemed to wake up 6 pounds lighter.  You got me.  Either way I’ll pray for that day, and if it doesn’t happen, I’m heading right for her!!

Now that TV is all done with, D and I are gonna try to learn Italian.  Right now I just don’t see it happening. 

This post is so boring I have to go

Holy S*(# this is real.

What a day, what a day.   This Monday has really sucked ass.

Official:   first wedding dress fitting:  Wednesday, June 11th.   Yeah, 9 days away. Please kill me now, or put me in a coma until then. Thank you.

The weekend was pretty good on the whole. D came back to town Friday night, and was home by 7. We were promptly arguing by 8:30, and I spent a good majority of the night a basketcase.  I don’t really know what happened other than the fact that I am fed up withhim leaving every other day to foreign countries, having little contact with him, planning the wedding on my own, and a billion other things that I haven’t cried over in months.  It needed to come out, I needed to say my peace, and thank God, after it was all said & done - the rest of the weekend was SO great.  

Saturday we slept in a little, made breakfast & fixed up our bikes, which were in dire need of some TLC.  It was suddenly cold, dark and then it POURED.  The weather was weird & there was a tornado watch in effect! So odd.   Then, just like that - it cleared up and became a gross, humid day.   I met up with my bff, C - my MOH, to go get mani/pedis and then back to her house to have dinner and head out to see SATC!  [I loved, loved, loved it! - although worst movie experience I've had in a while, too many people, not enough AC, too much waiting on lines...]

Sunday we got up & headed to Brooks Brothers and finally completed D’s transaction for his wedding suit and custom shirt order.  He is gonna be HOT, that’s all I can say. I will definitely have a hard time keeping my hands off his butt.  Just a warning.   The suit will be done in 2 weeks, the shirt not until AUGUST 1 (or later).  Ugh God I hope it’s right and it comes in on time… 

Afterwards we headed up to take the inaugural boat ride of our new boat, Yolo!  (You only live once)

But as per usual, something went wrong, the boat broke down, my dad couldn’t fix it, and we had to get towed home (about a half hour away).  It’s just so frustrating that my poor Dad just can’t seem to catch a break - no matter what he does, the boats have to keep breaking, something has to go wrong, its just such a pain in the ass.  I feel bad for him, but the problem was really something he couldn’t have foreseen - and will just simply have to be replaced.   But, on the good side, I got a wicked sunburn, with really weird lines that I can’t explain and I need to even those out before said fitting next week.  CURSES!

Slim-fast here I come 

eek!

Last night we officially ordered our wedding invitations!!  I can’t wait to see the proofs, and then have them just get here already!  Things are gonna start FLYING by now, with all sorts of events, and milestones being taken care of! 

D’s original suit they ordered didn’t fit him, they ordered the next size up but they didn’t get it in a “Long” so it had to be re-ordered AGAIN.  Thankfully we still have time or I’d be a little mad.

Just the other night I had a moment of “HOLY SHIT YOU HAVE TO HAVE A DRESS FITTING IN LIKE A WEEK” and kind of got mad at myself for not taking things a little more seriously lately. Molls, help!  But its been a crazy week at work (here after 6:30 every night) - so working out was just not happening.  I didn’t eat too bad but I NEEEEEEEED to step it up.  I do not want to cry when I am done with that first fitting.

Anyway work is still busy & I have lots to accomplish.. more Monday

 

May 30th:
I am grateful (SO grateful) that D’s traveling is almost done, as far as I know, and soon enough things will hopefully get back to a normal schedule…. well as normal as it can be with wedding planning going into Code Orange.

HELP ME! Im crazy

AHHHHHHHHH I have to get this out!   Right now it is only 5:53am in Vegas and I just can’t wait. 

Last night I had a terrible dream!   Let me preface it by saying that D and I spoke before I went to sleep, like 10 minutes before - and he was kind of rushing me off the phone because it was only like 8 there, and he was going to go out and “enjoy the nightlife”, or whatever.  The thing is - fine, have fun… but he’s there in Vegas with the ONLY girl co-worker in his division.  He is a computer guy, and girls are few & far between in his field.  So he’s in Vegas, with a woman, alone.   Cool.   I’ll get 2 things straight:  1. I trust him completely, no doubts about it.   2.  She is pretty butch, recently married (2 months ago), and kind of obnoxious.  Not his type.

But up until last night I hadn’t really given it any thought - but he’s saying something about going out and not worrying about getting up too early for the conference today & yada yada and I happened to do the usual girl thing “yeah well what happens in Vegas…”   and he laughed and said “You have been so good so far! I’m impressed this is your first comment!  I would have made 5 billion already”  and I told him how I felt (listed above) and he agreed.  End of story, love you, goodnight.

Well cut to me - sleeping, having the most INTENSE dream about his last gf in college - one who disliked me very much because of our friendship (to the point where she “banned” me from his house - and we lived across the street for 2 years)…. ANYWAY, it was intense, there were allegations of cheating or something bad going on and her stalking him & sneaking into the house when I went to pick up friends, and him running from me and this weird house party and his friends covering for him and lots of crying and craziness.  Which ended with me telling her all these nice things trying to make her a better person (wear less makeup, you are pretty, stop dressing so slutty, etc) - and I woke up like in a panic.   AWFUL.    I cannot wait till he wakes up and calls me so he & I can laugh and I can move on.

I know its just cause of our last conversation before I went to bed, and thoughts racing, but God help me… tomorrow at 5pm can NOT come quick enough!!!!

 

May 29th:
I am grateful for a few things today: Pay Day,  the 2-hour LOST finale, beautiful weather, wearing a skirt, and tonight we order wedding invitations!!!

I have totally slacked

But I made a promise to say something I am grateful for for every single day of May - and I WILL COMPLETE IT!

May 24th:
I am grateful that up until this point I have not yet gotten pregnant [knock on wood] - but that my friend looks like a beautiful, glowing version of herself - about to have a little baby boy in a month, and I can’t wait to meet him!

May 25th:
I am grateful to have D back in the USA for a couple days, having accomplished getting suits for all the guys in the wedding (well except him), and to have a great BBQ to start off summer together.

May 26th:
I am grateful that when I’m hungover, he likes to take care of me and make me feel better.

May 27th:
I am grateful that I taped Dirty Dancing on my DVR so that when the cable AND Internet are out on my first night alone this week, I was not completely bored out of my mind.

May 28th:
I am grateful for this short week, and that Friday already feels so close!

 

Wedding A-Z

In honor of my bride friend Molly, I’ve decided to give you my own [extra long] version of her patented Wedding A-Z post….on this milestone of 100 DAYS TILL MY WEDDING!

Yes, starting tomorrow we’ll be in double digits.  Holy shit.

 

A - Appetizers.  Is anyone else really concerned about missing your own cocktail hour and all the good foods you picked out?  I think I plan to ask the catering company to make D & I a great plate full of the foods we picked, so we can enjoy them once we’re done with pictures!  (especially the scallops wrapped in bacon!)                                

B - Bridal shower.  I am pretty much the sneakiest woman alive, and I tend to always dig until I find out a secret (present, engagement, you name it).  I know the girls (or just my MOH and mom) are planning a shower, and I know it’s going to have to be relatively soon - but I AM DYING TO FIND OUT MORE!  Will I actually be surprised for once in my life??? 

C - Cousin.  She’s still being a major ass.  I don’t really want to know what the story is behind the scenes, but I am trying each day to realize “it is not about me. It is about her” - and to truly believe it. It’s not because of me that she is showing ZERO interest in anything wedding related, she is just a selfish, immature little girl with a lot to learn.  Good luck in law school honey, you’ll need it! 

D- The new initial of [what will be] my new last name.  It’s going to be so hard to change everything, and weird that my new initials will be CD [haha] but its something I’m proud to do and excited to start our own new family!  p.s. it’s really hard to sign the new last name.  I think I need to practice more. 

E - Envelopes.  I don’t know how to address the invitation envelopes.  I’m not going to have a calligrapher (um, weird expense we can’t afford) - and I’m not handwriting them, so I plan on using the printer to do so.  I do think it’s going to take LOTS of trial and error.  And wine. 

F - Father/Daughter dance.  This is giving me such heart palpitations!  I was having bad dreams about the DJ for weeks a while back, thinking I never picked our song and we had to wing it on the spot.  Each dream I picked a new song, so it never pointed me in the right direction.  I want it to be special, not too cheesy, and very “us”.  It’s proving extremely difficult. 

G - Gym.  I have been going pretty consistently, and eating well (at least 5 days a week) - but I still feel like I’m never ever going to be where I want to be.  It’s both scary & annoying, and I don’t want to go into my first fitting and see my flabby arms (and armpit fat).  Although that might be the straw that breaks the camels back & I really intensify after that?  Pray.

H - Honeymoon!  (obviously) - SO excited, and I just know that saving all my vacation days for this trip to end all trips will be SO worth it, and so worth my weight in pasta & cheese I plan on eating.  From here on out, I’m looking for reading materials, blogs, everything I can on Italy!  Pass it my way :) 

I - Italy.  See above!

J - Jiggling.  Dammit, my arms/armpits are still flabby. I really, really need to work on this! And get a tan, I think that’ll help. 

K - the Knot.  I love looking, I love seeing crazy girls and all their crazy DIY projects, getting some inspiration here or there - but to be honest (and I’ve said this many a time before) - they make me feel like I am so uncreative, lazy and that I just “don’t care” about my wedding.  I’m sorry if I don’t have the time to hand stitch 100 invitations with golden strands of babies’ hair and seal the envelopes with my blood. 

L - Love.  The most important thing about the entire day.  All the little details will be nice, yes - but it’s really all about the love that we have for each other, and the fact that we want everyone to know how devoted we are to each other, and that we never want to spend another day apart, forever.   Aww…this whole wedding day is going to be rough! 

M - Marriage.  Obviously what this “whole thing” is about.  Our marriage.  I am behind it 100%, and plan to give it all that I possibly can and never give up.  I love that we started out as friends back in 2000 - and to this day I still want to call him and share everything, laugh with him, take trips with him, experience the world, comfort him and support him. I rely heavily on the fact that both of our parents have happy marriages with 30+ years between them, and the fact that they love and support us hopefully will help our relationship continue to grow.  I’m so happy. 

N - Nerves.  I am so afraid of how nervous I’m going to be that day!  (Pretty funny statement).  But I get the WORST nervous stomach, and I can only imagine how many times I’ll be in the bathroom that morning.  The only one who might be worse - my dad!  I think it’s the anticipation, the walking down the aisle with everyone staring…. Yikes!  Uh-oh Imodium! 

O -  Organized.  My mom is the one running the show behind the scenes.  She’s got a huge folder full of EVERYTHING we’ve done, thought about, etc. Plus all the names, addresses, phone numbers, due dates, costs associated with everything.  Thank God for that because I’m not nearly as good as she is, much to my surprise. 

P -  Presents.  Like I said - we’ve decided to forgo the whole ‘give each other a present’ thing, and get each other 1 little item (I’ll probably get him cuff links to wear on the wedding day) - and keep the rest for our travel fund.  I am so happy to do this, and then buy him a cool present for an anniversary instead.  The wedding should be present enough, right? 

Q - Quarrel.  How many times will we duke it out in Italy, lost, unable to translate something, unable to get the little car we’ve rented to work, with tired, aching feet?  It doesn’t matter.  We’ll be on our honeymoon - the trip of all trips for us! And the wine and sex will help ;) 

R - Registry.  Of course, I stalk it at least once a day.  So far, nothing (except our coffee maker that his mom bought especially for me).  I think that’s going to be my tip-off that a shower is coming and I really want to break this habit NOW so maybe I will be surprised for once. 

S -  Sex.  For the first time in my life it will be SO nice to not have to worry about getting pregnant “out of wedlock” by accident or before I’m ready.  Cause while I am in no way ready & we won’t be trying - we’d be married, both 26, both making decent money - and able to take care of it.  Freak out then?  Yes.  But not before that. 

T -  Ties.  I have no idea what I want them to look like, where we’re going to buy them, who is supposed to match who, and all that.  I know they will be a green to match the dresses, but other than that… I’m stumped.  Grr!  Help! 

U - Underwear.  I always thought I would be able to wear a cute pair under my dress, but after trying on my dress the last time with a colored (pink & white) pair, you can totally see right through it!  Which means I have to find a no-show, beige colored thong.  How BORING. 

V  - Vows.  We had talked about doing our own vows, but now I think he’s too nervous about saying them in front of everyone (and getting too emotional or something).  It’s definitely something we need to decide, and if we don’t do our own- I want to customize what we will be saying to each other, so it’s not straight out of the “Getting Married 101″ textbook. 

W - Wedding bands.  I’m really excited to make this purchase!  We are going back in July to the jeweler where D designed my ring in RI, and we’ll have a matching wedding band made for me, and then he gets to pick whatever he wants.  We’re also going to have them engraved [of course] and I just can’t wait till we can both wear them all the time!  

X - eXtra long hair.  (I know that’s a stretch).  But I cannot, cannot, cannot stop thinking about my hair and how glorious it will feel to be able to cut off 8 to 10 inches of it in just 3 months.  I’m seriously going the week after we get married (and before we go on our honeymoon) because I cannot take it anymore. It’s limp, boring, and TOO LONG.  But my quest to have the perfect wedding hair is keeping me in line.  Sigh. 

Y - Yellow.   How I keep fearing my highlights will look in ‘awake nightmares’ about my hair on the wedding day! 

Z - Zero.  How many doubts I have about any of this.

 

May 23rd:
I am grateful that Memorial Day weekend is officially here, and for whatever reason the weather seems to be holding out - actually giving us sun and NO RAIN for 3 straight days.  AMEN!   Everyone have fun & be careful!

But i AM boring..and of no help

I would just like to take a moment to apologize to anyone and everyone that has found their way here to figure out “how not to be boring”.   I certainly have not figured that out yet.  If and when I do - you guys will be the first to know.

FINALLY THURSDAY!  Which means tomorrow is Friday and we get out early & we have Monday off, and the whole day will feel like a half day at school and there will be a cake for someone retiring, which just rocks.   I will have a guilt-free slice, and go on with my day.   Plain and simple.

I have to continue preparing for the weekend - I have to go to the grocery store, clean up the house, and finish up shopping for the baby shower I have to go to on Saturday.  Then, just like that — D will be home Saturday at 4!  He is so ready - he sounds beat every time I’ve talked to him, and he just wants all this travel to be done with.  And I agree.

Tomorrow I’ll come to you with an extra special wedding post!

May 22nd:
I am grateful for inspiration, for hidden motivation I didn’t know I had - and a good friend to help me keep my ass on track!

Its my party & I’ll do what I want to!

A few words:

I hate David Archuleta.   The only way I could actually watch the show last night was to close my eyes when he performed.  That is bad news.   He is the creepiest little doll I’ve ever seen.  Terrifying.

I love David Cook.  LOVE HIM.  Love him.   I may or may not have voted for him 1 billion times.  But whatever.  Besides the point.  He won’t win tonight, and he will go on to be a kick-ass artist and I will buy his record.  Thank you.

———————-

I was supposed to go to dinner with a friend tonight, but in typical her fashion, she cancelled on me.  As per usual.  Seriously she is one of the WORST people when it comes to this.  You could have plans for weeks and the morning of, she’ll come down with like the Asian bird flu and won’t be able to make it.  No joke, she’s used some ridiculous excuses to get out of things that she seems SO excited to do.  It’s the strangest thing.  So instead, now I’ll get to go to the gym (woo hoo moll!)  and then perhaps come home, make myself some sort of egg delight for dinner, and watch Idol, scream into the silence of my apartment about how much I hate little David. 

The past couple days I stayed at my parents house because I just didn’t feel like going back to my empty apartment.  I was in a funk & the idea of sitting home every night, eating alone, etc just made me annoyed.  Oh lord how I was wrong.  I mean 1 night here or there is one thing, but a couple nights - where I have to do my “routine” at their house, and eat at a set time, and have them worrying about when I’ll wake up…. NO THANKS!   I will take 3 nights of solitude, thankyouverymuch, until D comes home.  I’m desperately needing it now.  They are great and all, but I have fully embraced my independence and as comforting as home can be - its just not the same!

Keep your fingers crossed for a beautiful weekend… so far, the forecast looks amazing!  I will just die of happiness if we get a couple days of sun and warm weather for the unofficial start of summer

 

May 21st:
I am grateful for the safe haven of my apartment, where I can walk around naked, eat what I want- when I want, play on the computer, watch whatever TV I want - without anyone looking over my shoulder and/or make comments about it!!