Hump day Happy

I’m wearing a dress today that feels like it has potential to fall in the toilet.  I’ll keep you posted if this event does occur.  Ugh, I’m shuddering just thinking of it!

This weather has got me in a good mood this week - even though I’ve spilled no less than 3 things in the kitchen in the morning over the past 2 days, and made big sticky messes.  I’ve gotten up a bit earlier to wash my hair in the mornings & unusually it’s made me run early.  Something is just so right about this weather, it is just glorious!

I’ve been to the gym the past 2 nights and worked HARD and I am sore and it feels so good.  I like feeling what I’ve done, knowing that my muscles were worked and that I am giving some benefit to my body.  Tonight I’ll take a “break” and just do cardio - depending on the weather later, I may even go home and run near the beach.  I haven’t done that in a while and it is a kick-ass workout and something good to change it up.  When we got home from the gym last night it smelled like sea air - the surest sign that summer is coming.  The air was thick, smelled wonderful and made me long for days on the beach, and nights outside.  It’s so wonderful, and I simply cannot wait for Memorial Day weekend.

My search for a wedding officiant continues - so far I have a couple guys that are available, and D & I will have to get on the phone with them to discuss their “style”, along with price.  Can you believe some of these people charge like $500 bucks to do ceremonies?  I certainly hope that the guy we end up going with is a bit more reasonable.  It seems pretty silly to me.

I’m still trying to remain centered about wedding stuff - I can’t help but dwell on what a douchebag my cousin is being when it comes to all this.  I don’t want to sit here & complain, but the simple fact is - she is completely disregarding any responsibility she has in regard to the wedding & things involved with it (shower, bachelorette party, attire, etc) - and while I shouldn’t really know about it, I was tipped off, and now I am pissed offand I wish that things would change.  I get it - no one will be as excited as I am - but you are my cousin, you are like a sister to me - and you are acting like being a bridesmaid is a huge inconvenience to you - when you don’t have a job, you are graduating college in like 3 days, and are pretty much living on cloud 9.  I don’t get it.  I would never do this to someone, whoever they were - if you ask me to be in your wedding party, I put out 110% for you - because it is YOUR special day, and I would want someone to do that for me.  Instead she’s ignoring calls, giving zero input, and acting annoyed.  I need to try to move past this and hope that one of the 3 people who love & care about me (and know how mad I am about this) will deal with her and make the situation right.  Because I certainly hope this isn’t any indication of the real person she is - if so, I will be highly disappointed.

May 7th:
I am grateful for Nivea Firming tanning lotion - it is giving me just a little lift I need to not feel like a super pale ghost - and while the smell isn’t wonderful, I’ve gotten used to it, and the shit really works!